it's KILLING me!!!

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LOVEsucks
in love?
so sick of this feeling
never will i wanna being in love ever again
sigh
if only i can control my feelings
URGH!
shit love ; screw love ; hate love ; fuck love
dang! It's so goddamn hurtful
I'm so enough with it
i just couldn't resist the pain anymore
it's killing me!
*scream*


Every thought running threw my head
I can't stop them
Too much to handle

But it all happened so fast
I thought too much
My mind got cluttered
Unable to function
Without a thought of you in my head

Every time I think of you
It's like a slow knife in my heart
Drawing blood slowly
A screaming pain
I can't hide from
I dread the day I have to talk to you

I tried to move on
To forget anything that happened
But i just couldn't get rid of you off my mind

My tears slowly run down my face
I slowly block everything that happens out
I see it happening before me
I stand back and let it happen

I have no strength to say I love you no more
Because I still love you
I wish I didn't

I think back to my child hood
And force myself to think it was happy
But then I remember all the hurtful things that happened
And don't want to go back to that
But yet....
I'm still waiting and wish to have you back

P/S i miss him.xoxo

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