it's KILLING me!!!

LOVEsucks

in love?

so sick of this feeling

never will i wanna being in love ever again

sigh

if only i can control my feelings

URGH!

shit love ; screw love ; hate love ; fuck love

dang! It's so goddamn hurtful

I'm so enough with it

i just couldn't resist the pain anymore

it's killing me!

*scream*

Every thought running threw my head

I can't stop them

Too much to handle

But it all happened so fast

I thought too much

My mind got cluttered

Unable to function

Without a thought of you in my head

Every time I think of you

It's like a slow knife in my heart

Drawing blood slowly

A screaming pain

I can't hide from

I dread the day I have to talk to you

I tried to move on

To forget anything that happened

But i just couldn't get rid of you off my mind

My tears slowly run down my face

I slowly block everything that happens out

I see it happening before me

I stand back and let it happen

I have no strength to say I love you no more

Because I still love you

I wish I didn't

I think back to my child hood

And force myself to think it was happy

But then I remember all the hurtful things that happened

And don't want to go back to that

But yet....

I'm still waiting and wish to have you back

P/S i miss him.xoxo